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The taller you are, the harder you fall.
Where I come from, personality and soul is everything. There is no room for regret, denial, liars and self pity. It's make it or break it. Never lose self control. If you don't have a spine of your own, don't come around here. You'll be eaten alive. Originality will get you far. But opinions will get you farther. It's not easy. But giving up is the selfish way out. So light up a cig, take a swig, and settle down. There is no way out now. |
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Monday, December 21, 2009,8:08 PM
I left earlier than you'll ever know.
My mind is so confused. It's beyond ridiculous. I have no idea what to do. It was all my choice to start over. I am becoming clean. I quit all the harmful things. And no I'm completely back at square one. HERMIT STATUS. I wake up, go to school, come home, lay in bed. And do it all over again. Oh, and if I'm lucky, I get to see Nick here and there. I'm back to not trusting and looking for a bestfriend. Back to lots of alone time and pondering. I don't want a bestfriend that flip flops. I don't want a bestfriend that isn't thinking for themself. I don't want a bestfriend that uses me.I want honesty, trust, and sincerity. Something new. Something I've never had before. One good friend. Not a ton of decent friends. One friend I can share everything with, do anything with, and confide in. I'm done with the lies, backstabbing and the games. I've been through it all. Numberous times. But if it doesn't happen, Then I know I'm the type of person that's not meant to have a bestfriend. That's not bad. Just thought things would be different this time. But I thought wrong.
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